We tried out the bouncer swing. She isn't wuite bouncing yet. She is getting so strong. Char worked this weekend so Emma and I watched lots of movies. We would have went out and enjoyed the weather but I have a pulled muscle in my back. I have been having a hard time standing up straight after I have been sitting. But it is getting better.
My birthday is coming up. I am not very excited. Birthdays and Holidays are such a chore. My folks are divorced and Char's parents don't really understand how hard it is. We feel like we are in the biz of "working people in". Since Emma is here I just want to enjoy all of my time with her. I don't want to spend it on the road. We usually spend more time on the road goin to see people than we do actually seeing people. I told Char I didn't want to do much for my birthday this year because I am kinda stressed enough. I am studying for the last part of the cpa exam and have a big project going on at work. Between work and studying I feel like I am infront of a computer 16 hrs a day. I just want to relax. That is what I want for my bday just to relax.
Lately I have been feeling something pulling at me. I feel the need for something more. I am really feeling drawn to find a church home for my family. I want Emma to grow up knowing and loving God. I want her to feel comfortable in church and comfortable with God. I didn't feel comfortable for whatever reason. I also feared God. I feel the need to pray with Char. I feel the need to become comfortable with God myself.