We are going to try again!!!

So we decided last night for sure that we are going to try again in Nov. I am so excited. This will be try number two. Char is going to call the doc today to ask about Clomid. I really feel better about this time because last time I didn't get to go with her to the doctor and now I should be able to. I am a tax accountant and the last time we tried it was in the middle of tax season. I so wanted to be there.

Woo Woo Woo, I can't wait.

Charlene,

Today is not an anniversary or anything, today is just a regular day. Right now in this moment, I feel overwhelmed by life in its entirety, and right now in this moment I find safety while thinking of Charlene. I think of her and everything else just fades away. I think of her and I feel the same butterflies right now sitting at work that I felt over 3 yrs ago when I first fell for her. I think of all the times she smiles at me, and how she is so sweet and has the heart of a saint. I love her with every inch of me and she is the fresh air that fills me. She knows my ins and outs, my bad times and good times, she even knows by the way I breath if something is going on in my head. I love the way she goes overboard when getting me back for a little practical joke or the way she rolls the little pieces of ham up on my sandwiches. I love surprising her with flowers. I love taking care of her. I love that we have a home together now. She makes me want to be a better person. She keeps me humble and thankful. Being with her gives me some inner strength and drive to be everything I can for her, to spoil her and love her from the moon and back. She is there laughing with me at the top of my game and there to give me a hand when I stumble. The way we can have a "date night" that consists of walking around Lowes and daydreaming together just as long as we are side by side, the way I want to know something new about her everyday, the way I can't breath if I try to picture life without her is how I know that everyday for the rest of my life I want to spend it with her. I love thinking of our life together, I love thinking about "our" family, I can't wait for her to be the mother of our children. I can't wait to spoil her even more then, and sing and read to her tummy. I can't wait to let her sleep at night and wake with our child. I know people are thinking yeah right wait till you get there. But I love her more than I thought I would ever love anyone and I know that she is it for me. She is everything to me and I hope that I can spoil her and make her smile even when we are old and grey.

I love you.

3 down about 76 to go

Well faithful readers I have lost three pounds since the start of our fitness challenge on Sept 24th. Not bad for a small start. Not earth-shattering biggest loser kind of loss but a start none the less.

So I have been with out "soda" for a week and two days ...but hey who's counting. I am doing great with this. It isn't as hard as I might have thought. I have even ate out and ordered water. I was always leery of ordering water because there is alot of foul tasting water out there. I thought I could usually depend on my Dr. Pepper to taste right. Now I will just suck it up and order water or the occasional tea. We drink sweet tea at the house and I got Char to buy decaf last week. I can not taste the difference and I think it helps with the head ache. She says she can taste the difference. Wonder if they make half caf???

Well I am slowly making it through a business law class I have to take to sit for the CPA exam in Louisiana. In Mississippi, where I graduated from college, we didn't have to have this class and you do here. I am killing two birds with one stone though because I had 147 hrs and you have to have 150 to sit so this class will do it. I just need to get motivated. So far I have only done 2 out of 15 lessons. Not good. I have until march to finish but I really want to get a move on. I would love to be through by Dec.

Must get to work