In side out

So we made it through the holiday. Tomorrow is Char's birthday. She will be 30. So we made it with a month to spare...she always said she wanted to be pregnant before she was 30 and we made it with a month to spare.

So she is 9wks. It seems like longer to me for some reason. I think that is because so much has happened in the past month with traveling all over for the holiday and work has been very busy which is really odd.

So far Char has been completely mind numbingly tired and has the occasional nausea and full blown morning sickness once or twice. We have picked 4 names two boys and two girls. Emma and Carly and Elijah and Abraham. We have a nightly ritual of me reading to our dot and the lotioning up the tummy.

Well that is a short up date but Char just walked in with pizza gotta go.

IT WORKED IT WORKED IT WORKED

WE ARE POSITIVELY PREGGERS WOO WOO WOO WOO!!!! I AM SO STINKIN EXCITED I COULDN'T HARDLY SIT STILL LONG ENOUGH TO DRIVE TO WORK!!! I WANT TO TELL COMPLETE STRANGERS EVERY WHERE.....


YEAHHHHHHH WOOO WOO

I HAVE NEVER FELT MORE COMPLETE AND HAPPY AS I DO WITH MY WIFE AND OUR FUTURE BABY IN THE MAKING.


THANKS FOR ALL THE BABY DUST GUYS WOO WOO.

maybe just maybe

So we held out as long as we could. Nine whole days. We gave in yesterday was day nine and we took a ept. There was a very faint positive. So I am continuously telling myself it is ok and not really positive. Last time we got a very faint positive too. So we are just going to act like we didn't even take the test.

Meanwhile, the holiday went alright. I went to my mom's Wednesday and stayed until Fri. morning. Char had to work Wednesday and was supposed to on Thursday but the closed her unit and put her on call. She still had to stay in town though.

And for my birthday on 11-19 I got a wonderful cold. I haven't been able to fight off over the holidays so I got a shot today...yeah it sucked. But I am starting to feel better already. Char is so wonderful, before she went to work she made me a bath and vicks vapor rubbed my cheeks and nose. I am feeling much better thanks to my personal nurse...lol...

So I have been thinking and I pretty much spoil Char all the time as it is but I was wondering what were some of the things that you ladies who have been through this have really enjoyed or appreciated. If you are still ttc what would you like done for you when the baby dust takes hold? Whether it is big or small, silly or not. I think it will be interesting trade short stories.

So I look forward to hearing from you all.


and on the downlow...hopefully it really is positive and it really was just faint because it is early...I would really be like a kid on christmas.

and now the tww

so yesterday we did it. It was very surreal. Like an out of body experience. It was so big such a huge experience. Now we wait.

TOMORROW TOMORROW

We are ttc again tomorrow!!! 8:30 in the am we are going for try #2....please oh please please please work this time. So we will see. hopefully all goes well. Baby dust everywhere...a baby dust storm.....

We are going to try again!!!

So we decided last night for sure that we are going to try again in Nov. I am so excited. This will be try number two. Char is going to call the doc today to ask about Clomid. I really feel better about this time because last time I didn't get to go with her to the doctor and now I should be able to. I am a tax accountant and the last time we tried it was in the middle of tax season. I so wanted to be there.

Woo Woo Woo, I can't wait.

Charlene,

Today is not an anniversary or anything, today is just a regular day. Right now in this moment, I feel overwhelmed by life in its entirety, and right now in this moment I find safety while thinking of Charlene. I think of her and everything else just fades away. I think of her and I feel the same butterflies right now sitting at work that I felt over 3 yrs ago when I first fell for her. I think of all the times she smiles at me, and how she is so sweet and has the heart of a saint. I love her with every inch of me and she is the fresh air that fills me. She knows my ins and outs, my bad times and good times, she even knows by the way I breath if something is going on in my head. I love the way she goes overboard when getting me back for a little practical joke or the way she rolls the little pieces of ham up on my sandwiches. I love surprising her with flowers. I love taking care of her. I love that we have a home together now. She makes me want to be a better person. She keeps me humble and thankful. Being with her gives me some inner strength and drive to be everything I can for her, to spoil her and love her from the moon and back. She is there laughing with me at the top of my game and there to give me a hand when I stumble. The way we can have a "date night" that consists of walking around Lowes and daydreaming together just as long as we are side by side, the way I want to know something new about her everyday, the way I can't breath if I try to picture life without her is how I know that everyday for the rest of my life I want to spend it with her. I love thinking of our life together, I love thinking about "our" family, I can't wait for her to be the mother of our children. I can't wait to spoil her even more then, and sing and read to her tummy. I can't wait to let her sleep at night and wake with our child. I know people are thinking yeah right wait till you get there. But I love her more than I thought I would ever love anyone and I know that she is it for me. She is everything to me and I hope that I can spoil her and make her smile even when we are old and grey.

I love you.

3 down about 76 to go

Well faithful readers I have lost three pounds since the start of our fitness challenge on Sept 24th. Not bad for a small start. Not earth-shattering biggest loser kind of loss but a start none the less.

So I have been with out "soda" for a week and two days ...but hey who's counting. I am doing great with this. It isn't as hard as I might have thought. I have even ate out and ordered water. I was always leery of ordering water because there is alot of foul tasting water out there. I thought I could usually depend on my Dr. Pepper to taste right. Now I will just suck it up and order water or the occasional tea. We drink sweet tea at the house and I got Char to buy decaf last week. I can not taste the difference and I think it helps with the head ache. She says she can taste the difference. Wonder if they make half caf???

Well I am slowly making it through a business law class I have to take to sit for the CPA exam in Louisiana. In Mississippi, where I graduated from college, we didn't have to have this class and you do here. I am killing two birds with one stone though because I had 147 hrs and you have to have 150 to sit so this class will do it. I just need to get motivated. So far I have only done 2 out of 15 lessons. Not good. I have until march to finish but I really want to get a move on. I would love to be through by Dec.

Must get to work

Headaches and Hotdogs

So I have had a headache for the past three days but it wasn't nearly as bad yesterday. The headaches a from the no Dr. Pepper I am having. Woo Woo. This morning Char got me something for breakfast and she asked if I wanted a Diet DP and I said no I will have water when I get to work well she shows up all sweet with a small Dr. Pepper. Very sweet but tested my will power so I waited until I finished eating and took about five small sips to get the food taste out and then threw it away immediately. I am reading a book by Dr. Peeke Fit To Live and she says you have to adjust and adapt. She went out to eat with this model one time in and foreign country at a famous restaurant and they had a very healthy delicious meal and the waiter came and asked if they wanted dessert and the model says I hear you are famous for your desserts and he says yes we have 3 we are very well known for and she says I will have one of each. Dr. Peeke thought oh no she is bulimic and when they came out the model had one bite of the first and savored it and did so with the second and third. Then she looked around and frowned and looked back at the desserts and then poured salt all over all three. She said her personal asst. usually had the waiter come get the desserts and take them after she had her bites so they didn't so she poured the salt. She said she wasn't going to travel the world and eat at the most amazing restaurants in the world and not enjoy it fully. I thought that was very interesting. Expensive. But interesting. So I tossed 3/4 of the Dr.Pepper.

I have upped my water a lot but not to the full 8 glasses a day. I am drinking about 5 or 6. This is very good for me because I normally only have the DP or sweet tea at home.

Char and I have talked more about trying again sooner rather than later. We were thinking of waiting until Jan or Feb but we talked about doing it in the next couple of months though. We want to ask her doc about Clomid. Anyone with any insight on this? I have no idea how you get on it or how long you have to be on it to ttc. I hope it all works out. Char and I are both so ready to have a child.

Well I should do some work for now.

So many things have happened since my last blog. Unfortunately a new little one was not one of them but we are getting geared up to get back into the swing of it. I finished my first and last season with the Shreveport Aftershock. It is a proffessional women's football team. It was great and my wife and I met so many great people. Four of them are in the pic on the left. We are from left to right...Me (leigh), my wife (Char), Suzanne, Jen (Juice), my buddy (ATodd) and my buddy's wifey (Steph). We have made it through a summer of a week long vacation with the inlaws, my grandfather had his second bypass surgery is was six at one time the first time was a quad, my papaw has been in and out of the hospital with his heart, my brother and my beautiful silly nephew have moved back to North Carolina with his wifey, bought a new Toyota Tundra CrewMax (planning to put lots of kids in the back) two weeks later fender bendered the Beautiful new truck, cried like crazy it was my first wreck, we went canoeing (see the pick above) and probably the most wonderful of all we celebrated our first wedding aniversary. WOOWOO

So now fall is slowly creeping in and the leaves are turning and hopefully someday will can turn the a/c off and open the windows though that comes very late in the year down here in the south and even then you better have good screens on or the mosquitoes will come in and take you away. Football games are roaring at the school behind our house and the drum beat rumbles over to our yard and we sit on our back porch and enjoy a freshly grill something and enjoy the crisp air.

Fall rolling in also means the holidays wont be far behind. And with holidays comes lots of wonderful food. Then there is the new years resolutions that come and so quickly go for the most part. So Char, ATodd, Steph and I have decided to tackle them early. Early Bird gets the worm, right?. So as of yesterday Sept 24,2007 we started our "fitness challenge" for lack of an even more corny name. We are putting 20$ per person a month into a pot to be won on christmas by whoever has lost the most weight precentage wise. It has to be done by making healthy lifestyle changes with no assistance from diet pills.

I think I will add my fitness challenge journey into the blog and see if that helps. My biggest step will be to cut out the cokes or in my case Dr. Pepper. So far I have not had a Dr. Pepper or coke of any kind in 43 hrs. WooWoo. I have also lost one pound of course I know that will vary day to day but hey I am celebrating any little victory.

Well I must do some work. I will blog more later. We do plan on ttc again very soon. More about that later.

That would be a negative

So we inseminated April 11 and 12 and Char had all the "signs" and today she got a blood test done and it was negative. She is really upset and I am stuck here at work while she is crying driving herself home. I am upset too but I tried really hard to not get excited about it and not let my hopes get up. To make matters worse she takes paxil and since she had all these "signs" she worked her self off of it. And her parents are jerks.

anyways that is the latest news. I know it will be ok. I just hate being stuck at work while she is so upset.

B-2 WEEKS

WE ARE B - 2 WEEKS AND COUNTING.

We have purchased sperm and are "doing the deed" around April 12th. It is coming up very soon and I couldn't be more excited.

woo woo

NEW BABY NEWS

So Char had her first appointment yesterday. We got the sperm bank paperwork signed and he check out her charting that she has been doing. We were a little worried because a few years ago she had a mass removed from her fallopian tubes. When she talked to him about it he said he might have been worried if she didn't have the charting but after he looked at it he said he wasn't worried at all because everything was so normal and very consistent. We have been charting for about two months at least now. So we looked at donors last night and think we have one picked out. We are going to do two inseminations on the first time which will be around April 12th. I am so excited all I could do was smile ear to ear yesterday after she told me. On top of that yesterdays good news came on our three year anniversary. WOO WOO what a great present.

So that is the baby news for now. Char may be about to start a new job. And football is going great.

I am a dork...LOL

So it has been a while since I have been able to post. I am an accountant and if you have ever heard of a hunter's widow there is also such a thing as an accountant's widow during tax season and unfortunately that time has come.

So yes I prepared taxes the other night even in my dream how SICK. Anyway. Now that a new year has come and we aren't traveling to our families houses so much we have attempted to get to know our new hometown. So we have started going to a church that is very welcoming. It is nice. A compromise on both of our parts because Char is Catholic and I was raised baptist and even though baptists are crazy against gays and lesbians I like the feel of the way a baptist preacher preaches and I am not so used to the repeat after me stuff and communion every sunday deal. So this church is kinda a mixture of both.

I also joined a women's football team. We are the Shreveport Aftershock formerly known as the Shreveport ShockHers. Saturday was my first practice with the team and boy am I out of shape. I think that last time I really ran I mean REALLY RAN SPRINTED was like 8 yrs ago. How pityfull is that. I was ashamed. So needless to say I have a lot of work to do.

We also finally went to the local gay bar. Saturday was the Mardi Gras parade here and after words we went to "The Corner". It was small but great everyone was nice and they played all kinds of music not just the techno dance same beat to every song no matter what the words are someone beat on my head stuff. Which of course is ok if that is what you like.

On the baby front...We have been doing the charting now for about half to 3/4 of Char's first cycle. We bought the pee on the stick ovulation kit. As soon as Char finds out when her insurance kicks in we are going to the doc to get the rest going. We are making progress though and finally it is starting to feel a bit more real.

I cant wait. Imagine I can't wait now how in the world am I going to make it through the tww. I think I might go crazy. Everytime I walk in a store I automatically gravitate to the baby section even in the grocery store. LOL. Everything is just so cute. And soft and well you all know.

So that is an update for now. Must get back to the numbers that now creep into my dreams.

OH YEAH WHY AM I A DORK. I must explain the title of this blog. Well you see the way I found out about the women's football team was through this girl who saw me at the gym when Char and I were working out. She wasn't hitting on me or anything but clearly I am not a slender delicately looking girl, so she approaches us and was like do you play sports? and proceeded to tell me I should come tryout for their team. So I went after practice I was saying thanks for letting me know about this and see ya later yada yada and she was like call when you get ready to work out and maybe we can all start working out together (ALL=her, her mom's girlfriend who's the quarterback, char, me and whoever else). I told her why don't you call me because I dont have a scheduled deal going on or anything. We talked some more and she invited me and char over to watch the L word last night. About half the team goes over there to watch it. So I go and what a shy intimidated little idiot I was. I don't know what the deal was because usually I am a smart ass but I didn't know what to say. I was all quiet and akward. I think part of it was that I am pretty out of shape compared to alot of the girls, I haven't been around that many lesbians just hangin out before (that was great but i think we hide down here in the south), Char couldn't go because of work so I was by myself, and I dont know. I just really felt like a dork. POOOO. I think sometimes I am boring or something. Some of them were talking about getting a tatoo. I was just like yeah cool. I have no tatoos and dont desire to have a tatoo. I dont look down on people who do, Char has four. But I just dont get excited about them either you know. I think it is great for them yeah cool but I dont have anything to compare it to and just dont get excited about it so (a dork once again). Well that explains what a dork I am

Finally

So finally the holidays are over and we have regained a bit of normal on the weekends. We moved into our new house on Sept 1st and since then we have spent maybe two weekends at home. This past weekend made the third. It was great just relaxing. I don't want to go anywhere until Thanksgiving. LOL

We didn't do much worth blogging about though. Just spent the day together, went to Barnes and Noble and ate good.

We did find out that Char's insurance possibly has went into effect immediately instead of the 30 day wait we thought she was going to have. This is good because we can go ahead and get a start up exam out of the way. We want to make sure her tubes are ok because she once had a mass removed from them. We will also have to get that doctor's release for the sperm bank. All of this great news and AF came today so we can start at the beginning with our chart and everything. I am really excited. Things seem to be falling in place.

So I will try to keep this as updated as possible.

L&C

I have been found

Yeah I got comments. I had quit posting thinking no one would find me and now I have been found. Well a quick update is that we found a doctor we are going to use. He has worked with two other lesbian couples. One couple gave up and one split up so hopefully he is not bad luck. He is most likely the only doc in our small southern town with any experience working with lesbians. We are going to set up an appointment for sometime after mid feb. Charlene is starting a new job and her insurance will kick in then. I know it most likely will not cover much at all until she is pregnant so we could go on and start with an initial visit but we just feel safer waiting incase the insurance acts crazy.

We have both read both of the recommended books, and Charlene is working on several other fertility books she found at the library.

I just feel all gitty thinking about it. LOL. I know we are no where near close, and I have no illusions of being successful on the first time but I just want to buy baby blankets and toys and clothes. The clothes are sooo cute.

Anyways work is about to be crazy with tax season starting up.

Oh yeah if anyone wants to recommend the sperm bank they used or steer me clear of a bad one that is much welcomed.

And sorry if my blog is kinda plain I dont have a lot of time to learn how to make it all fancy.

Any tips on making the blog roll thing would be great I think I have been doing it the hard way.

L&C